valley

it is a valley surrounded completely by many hills insurmountable - none can ever come in or go out. all of them is me and me only carefully constructed to play multiple roles.

i play the role of a, i have to dress as b to reply as b, then play role of c d ....

all by me all different roles of me a b c ...

even in sleep i play this game - pain pleasure grief jealousy shame fear but can't cross the barrier

i have seen myself in a zoo in Thailand as a monkey buckled in my neck hanging above across the road on a steel rope - imprisoned shrilling mad ...death is my only escape

is there death - i mean MY permanent deletion of the valley?

my death wont end this valley i shall forever as the current and descendant of the valley. I am valley every grain of it every atom of it.

I simply tired of this never ending play where i change my dress character appearance every moment and show my emotions and feelings with none ever existing

i m alone absolutely one and only one and there shall be none ever

i m lone flamingo in the zoo dancing to entice all the watcher as my mate - my priceless pearls of love wasted