ভগবানের লড়াই

এক ঝাক পায়রা থাকতো তারা গির্জার ঘন্টা ঘরের উপড়ে
এবার ঘন্টা ঘর রং হবে তারা আশ্রয় নিল মসজিদের মিনারের উপরের আর এক দল পায়রার সাথে
যখন মসজিদের মিনারের রং হবে পায়রার  দল আশ্রয় নিল মন্দিরের চূড়োর উপড়ে আর এক দল পায়রার সাথে
যখন মন্দিরের চুড়ো রং হবে পায়রাররা সব মিলে আশ্রয় নিল জলের টান্কের উপড়ে
সেখান একদিন  এক কচি পায়রা দেখল নিচে রাস্তায় মারামারি হচ্ছে
'ওরা কারা মা, ওরা কি করছে?'
'ওরা মানুষ্ এ টা তাদের ভগবানের লড়াই।'
'আমরা কেন ভগবানের লড়াই করি না কেনো ?'
'ওরা ভগবানকে মন্দিরে মসজিদে গির্জায় রাখে
আর মাঝে মাঝে দেখতে যায়
সঙ্গে রাখে মন্দির মসজিদ আর গির্জার ভাবনা
আমাদের ঘর নেই আমরা ভগবানকে রাখি আমাদের হৃদয়ে
আমরা যেখানে যাই ভগবান আমাদের সঙ্গে খাকে
আমাদের তাই কোনো লড়াই নেই।'

a family of pigeons used to live on top of bell tower of church
church is getting face lift bell tower is getting new paint
pigeons shifted to the minaret of nearby mosque
they became one family with those living on the minaret top
mosque is going to get a face lift
minaret is getting painted
pigeons shifted to temple nearby
became one those living in its dome top
Temple is getting a face lift
all the pigeons took shelter above the water tank

there is a bloody street fight
a young pigeon asked its mother
'who are them and why they are doing'
'they are human and it is their fight to save their god in temple mosque and church'
'why don't we fight for saving our god'
'we don't have house
we carry our god in our heart where ever we go
god saves us from harm
we don't have to save god'

Essay on my life

I had a goal to clean up a mess I did about 40 years back.

Fresh and confident that I can tackle any break down in relationship, I ventured into a relationship. I was in a mess. I am usually successful in my undertakings. I was super confident. That relationship did not take place. I got into further relationship - got married and had two children. The life of family man that had a process never ended.

My questions and some answers as I progress by inches. I had many failure almost every moments in my last 40 years.

I came to know many things.

All is in my mind.

All is 100% me.

Supreme God that has no peer or parent is creator of truth or meaning of truth is the home of all truths.

Supreme God is none other but personal me that can't be shared with any.

Public me or me in relation does not real.

Yet I was not happy - my goal of life was not achieved.

I could be tempted. I could fail and get hurt. I could be afraid. I could be ashamed.

I was not myself. Despite all my knowledge of me.

I also made my path to achieve supreme godhood public in writing as I progressed for last seven years.

That this can be done all by myself in my unique way without assistance and publicly.

I am living proof of success.

Conway's Life

About 40 years back I bought a book of John Horton Conway 'On numbers and Games'. Numbers are not really integers that most grow up with but they are very similar to the concept of zero and one that of Vedanta - Shunya (zero) and Creator (one). Two persons are playing games - L is set of moves for left person. R is the set of moves for R person. When L, R are empty, we have and second person wins. L wins for positive numbers, while R wins for negative numbers. Loser has no move.
0: |
1: 0|
2: 1|
- 1: |0
*: 0|0 is not a number called fuzzy
he goes on describing operations rational etc and create numbers similar to real but not really.
http://arxiv.org/pdf/math/0410026.pdf

Conway's game of life assumes two dimensional grid extending indefinitely in all directions. Each grid position is either on or off. In the next time instant grid goes off or on depending on the ON counts of its immediate neighbors. Watch the following visual for the rules of becoming OFF or ON. Also different evolution of life given a starting pattern.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2vgICfQawE

You can of course extend the substratum to be three dimensional. Grid elements are cube and neighbors are 26. Chose your initial pattern and rules create your universe.

Our universe that we see as if euclidean is so due to my own limitation to think otherwise incorporated with simple rules deterministic in nature. I have not much knowledge of thermodynamics but theory behind it probabilistic and non-euclidean space.

Reality I shall never know and no one shall ever know. Equipment created for observation too makes observations in linear time. I wonder if this itself is not an assumption. For example it can be a spring and it should be possible to make time jumps. Neighbors are not limited to two as in linear scale.

I am not going to make clever theories. I am past stage of university honors where some understand. I know all is in my mind and god it is unique and personal is outside my mind. I see what is shown. I think what is thought. I do what is done. I am a hopeless and limited within now.

Nothing sticks to god - there is no attribute

In the language I can't write down anything that even one understands.